Missing You...

I don’t think anyone truly understands how much I miss you,

How much I crave for your touch every minute of the day.

How much I close my eyes and can feel holding you,

How much I block off the rest of the world and all the noises.

Just so I can think about the sound of your voice,

How you laugh, how I can tell when you are smiling.

How you say, "I love you" whenever I am down,

How you always say, "Jan" and I can't help but smile.

Every minute of the day, no matter what I am saying or whom I am with,

Only you and your love is what is going on in my mind.

The sleepless nights I have?

The pain in my heart, and how it breaks when you’re not near?

The tears I cry everyday that goes by when I am not in your arms?

The aching in my stomach that occurs when we're not together?

You're my life, my everything, you are me, and I am you,

Without you I am just not whole, Jan come make me whole.

Let me wrap my arms around you and hold you tight,

Let me wakeup to your face and in your sweet loving embrace.

How much longer must I live with this distance between us?

As long as I have to is the only answer to that.

For I will not give up, no matter the tears I cry, or the pain I feel,

When I think of you and your love, how much I love you.

When I think of us finally being together - for forever and a day,

It makes it all worth it; I know I can wait as long as I must.

You are the only one that I want in my life,

The only one that really, truly, makes me happy.

The only one that has taken the time to dig into my heart,

To look pas the pain I might feel.

To look pas how I often push people away,

And to get to the part where I am only hurt.

And to be the cure to my broken heart.

Forever and a day Jan, for eternity and not one second less.

We promised each other, we vowed to one another,

And that vow will never, ever, be broken...