?At Last I knew Love!!!

In The Name Of GOD The Most Gracious The Most Merciful

One of the reasons that hindered me from choosing Islam

 - in spite of my convenience of what it is calling for-

 is that I considered myself

not being worth being a Muslim.

Along the years I did a big number of sins and guilt

, which made me feel it’s impossible for me to live my life under the umbrella of Islam requirements.

After I finally spoke out Islam testimony,

 I committed myself to it.

Although I realize my corruption,

 I realized it’s better for me to live and die recognizing the truth

, even if I fail to fulfill it’s necessities,

 then to live and die in silence and ignorance of this truth.

After adopting Islam,

 I knew I might be the most miserable among all Muslims,

 I promised myself to do all the best that I can to live with the Believe (the faith).

This may sound strange,

but I lived the strongest spiritual moments in my life during those few weeks after I converted to Islam.

It was like as much as I saw myself much weaker and in a lower grade,

 my prayers turned to be more gorgeous and exiting,

 and the more I needed God’s mercy and forgiveness,

 the more I felt them in my heart.

In spite of all weakness factors that I still have to overtake,

 I used to feel loving mercy and sympathy,

 the more I went to The One (God) direction,

who knows me very well.

I never knew real love until I became a Muslim,

 I always used to feel it’s a big risk to trust any human being even myself.

As an atheist I used to think that love was nothing but a pleasant expression of the unsecured human feeling and his selfishness.

 I gave up love since a long time and I never wanted to know it either as giver or taker.

All that I was striving for was to live a comfortable life as much as I can until I die,

 to turn into forgotten dust under an unknown grave…

BUT….after I read the Qura’an  and accomplish  Islam prayers, a door opened to my heart and I’ve been covered by overwhelming sympathy.

Love turned to be more lasting and real than the ground I’m standing on.

From Jiffrey Lang Book

"Even Angels Ask"