assalamu'alaikum ...,

hi,
how are u?
with this letter i just want u to know my feeling
although i really want to give this letter directly to u
however i know it's not appropriate anymore
and i know everything's over
and the past will never come back..

although i always try to not regret anything in this life
but why my mind always return to the memory
where i still could be with u
and keep asking why or if it could have a different ending

and why my heart still doesn't want to let u go
go away from my life, heart, and mind
and why my heart still want to know ur news and condition
what are u doing now or whether are u happy or not

i don't know, and honestly i don't want to blame anyone
and could always simply say this is Allah decision for us
however, i am only a human
who sometimes think if u could be honest with me before
may be i would not get hurted so much like this
coz i thought i was special for u,
like u are special for me

however, u already choose someone else besides me
whom i believe more than me,
although u said u did it coz u have to do that...
and even though it's difficult for me
and i feel my feeling for u never decrease even only a little
but i have to be a realistic
coz like u said everything is over,
and life is not stopping at this point
and i still have to move on and let the past only in the past

what i could do only always praying for u
May Allah always gives u happiness, helps u, and gives His blessing on u
and May allah helps me to contend my sorrow and forget u...

wassalam,


P.S: For my special friend whom may be already forget me and also our friendship...
please forgive me, especially coz i have to break our friendship
however, i still can't forget u...